AS MUCH AS YOU WOULD LIKE TO KILL ME..

I have moved, again.

I know, sorrrryyyyyyy.

www.candlelightkiss.wordpress.com

see you fellows there (:

I`m tired
of being all alone,
I wanna go somewhere,
somewhere far away.

I don`t belong here,
I just wanna leave,
Anywhere but here,
I just wanna go.

Chorus:

Somewhere, somewhere I belong,
somewhere I`d be free,
somewhere fears don`t exist,
so I`'ll keep looking,
for that some place I belong,
for that some place I belong.

I know I've got nothing to blog about.

my mind is currently blank.
Like, blank-er than blank.

numb and... thoughtless ?

I don't know. It's been this way for the past few days.

I feel like, inertia.
resisting change or something. Moving forward recklessly.

I don't know. I'm just blank blank blank.

to be honest,
I don't even know why am I bothered to blog.

Do you realize I'm making you read, something stupid : something blank. Yeah, this can be considered a blank post.

bleh.

numb & dumb.
gosh.

I wanna go somewhere, somewhere far away.

xoxo,
melinda.

Sometimes, things don't just revolve around you.
Sometimes, you have to start making your own decissions.

and sometimes, those decissions aren't about you anymore.
sometimes, decissions are hard.

and they get harder and harder as time flies by.

sometimes, it's tough to put down all you've had.
sometimes, you're just out of choice.

sometimes, you'll realize the importance in decission making.
sometimes, it just isn't all about you anymore.
sometimes, it's about those around you, those whom you love.

I wish sometimes, this would be all a bagatelle.
sometimes I wish I never have to think about it anymore.

but it never turns out that way.
and sometimes, there isn't any escape for it.

sometimes, you just have to make sacrifices.

sometimes.

 
;;;;a lachrymose smile.

BIRTHDAYS !

Today was Elaine & Jenn Yee's birtday

awesomeness. Yes, they have the same birthday! So cool !!

So after school we all went to WongKok to celebrate.

We, mainly Carol, JennYee, Elaine and I were pondering what to order. Maywen came actually, but she left like... 5 minutes after we arrived.

I know, so weird.

but anyway. It was fun fun fun!

we were chatting on and on and on about.. well, girl stuff. We were laughing and laughing.

I nearly spit my drink out cuz Carol won't stop poking fun of something. I was clasping my mouth to make sure no tehtarik would fly out. But yeah, I ended up choking.

and the waiter thought I was dying. Somehow. They way they stared at me coughing while holding my breath.. they were like, damn scared.

hahaha.

this was my very, very tall TehTarik

no, it's not the birthday vase teh tarik, but the individual one (: and it's damn freaking tall.

EXHIBIT A :

STATUE OF LIBERTY. (sorta)

see how tall/long that cup is?!

ELAINE IS FINALLY 16
(eligible for sex in Singapore.)

Though I've only known her for like, 5 months.

I can guarantee you, she's an AWESOME FRIEND (:
from the moment she came into 4C, she always had a smile painted widely on her face.

and since I know her now, I'm pretty sure she'll be smiling for the rest of my life.

Elaine Lim Sue Ann, finally 16, all grown up!
please stay as awesome as you are now, forever (:

AND TO JENNYEE,

of all picture, I forgotten to take a picture of you

sorry !!!

but but but, it's the thought that counts, right?

CHANJENNYEE.
well, i've only gotten close to you starting of the year.

and hey, you're pretty damn awesome too!
and I awe your supercute dimples.
and you laugh a lot, you know.

hahaha and the same to you :
stay as awesome as you are now, like, forever!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENN YEE & ELAINE LIM !

I don't known why, but Carol wanted me to snap a photo of that. (: hahaha.

So anyway, I walked home today, like ALONE.

zomg. 2nd time!

ahaha. okay. I get a little scared when it comes to walking home alone.
not because of the raping/kidnapping and stuff,
but I'm more scared of getting caught by my parents.

zomg.

so yeah. I was using a superrr long route to go home.
turning here and there... and then seeping into backlanes and stuff just to hide myself away from the main road.

Between getting raped/kidnapped and getting caught by my parents...
i'd choose getting raped/kidnapped.

getting caught by my parents = grounded for life.
raped/kidnapped = death.

grounded for life somehow appeals to me as a more brutal end.

so yeah, I was going trough this very deserted roud which is pretty famous for it's ... you know, crime.

so I was like, damn alert while walking through that road lah.

but suddenly I saw this boy, around his 20-ies I think. He was like walking ahead of me, with a backpack.
I felt like... 300x more relief when I saw him.

Though I don't know him. but yeah, having a chinese 20-year old college kid walking on the road somehow made me feel safer.
it's like, if someone comes with a motorbike and statches my money, he would at least turn back and .. well, you know... college boys like being the hero.

no, I'm not trying to be the damsel in distress.
but when you're walking through that creepy road, seeing another person around you, would make you feel safer , OKAY ?

so yeah, he was quite far infront, so I started walking and kicking stones to catch his attention.
to make sure he knows that there is a girl behind him, like, if someone screams, he'd know who's screaming.

so yeah. I was like kicking stones and making noise.. meanwhile, catching up with his pace.

but suddenly right, when there was like a turning, he started running.

i thought he saw his friend .. or maybe he was near home or something.

I was so scared that I'd lose sight of him, so I started walking faster and faster, trying to catch up lah.

He run run run until he was almost at a junction. He saw some cars, so he stopped and turned around.
All he did was gave me the super confused look.
he was staring at my direction for almost.... 5 seconds.

all a sudden, he just stopped walking fast. All he did was relax, and then started walking like he's damn relief and relaxed.

I was damn damn damn damn confused.
until I realized something....

HE THOUGHT SOME SNATCH THEIF / RAPIST WAS FOLLOWING HIM.
and that explained the SUDDEN running.

omg, you should've seen his super-shocked face.
i was holding my laughters when I figured the whole thing out.

what a pussy. Seriously.
a boy?
afraid of... what? A rapist? A snatch thieft?

my gawddd.

and to end my post... Yokeyee and I were in Coffee Bean the other day. and we grabbed this magazine.

AND THEN YOKEYEE POINTED SOMETHING FOR ME TO SEE.

I WENT CLOSER TO INSPECT....

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Signing off,
melinda. (:

Because somewhere out there,
there'd still be an idiot who would love you.

I am like pissed to core. Like gawddamnpissed.

freaking idiotic Taylor's Debate.

and yes, that shows that we have lost in the debate.

Okay lah, to be honest, it was quite obvious that we were gonna lose, it's just that I cannot tahan something.

now, I'm going to start talking really fast and it might be confusing,
so yeah. Listen carefully.

Motion : This house believes that the media has a negative influnce on the minds of Malaysians.

okay, so can someone please tell me the role of a 3rd Speaker?

simple : rebut all points given and reaffirm our case, etc.
and obviously, no extra points should be introduced right?

so when the results was going to come out, this was what the Adjudicator said :
"We recieved a lot of calls this morning regarding our new format for our 3rd Speaker. For those who attended the workshop, you would have known that the third speaker is now only allowed to rebut and cannot introduce new points."

okay, like, duh lah right?

"BUTTTT, seeing the numbers of phone calls and the confussion between Taylor's College and the schools, the person in charge has said to loosen our marking scheme and to close one eye. So we would allow the 3rd speaker to introduce a new point."

and hence that was how the fucking La Salle won.

Because their 3rd speaker pandai-pandai go add new point.

and it was damn damn damn damn stupid I tell you, I honestly don't know how they won lorh.

no, I'm not being a sore loser. I would be glad to lose if a team like Sri Permata beats us. But La Salle was eating their own words, they were even agreeing with us lah damn it ! 

We say : "Whether an issue is positive or negative is absolutely subjective. One person might think this is negative and the other might think it is positive."

They say: " Now, I want to make this clear to you all between positive and negative. Positive means good, and negative means bad. Of course, the government does not object the idea that everything has it's good and bad.. but all we're trying to say is taht.... pause. But everything has two sides, there's good and the bad side. you cant just say...pause."

er.... aren't they agreeing with us then? Aren't they suppose to tell us there are MORE bad sides?

Instead, they went on and on about...... how educational CDs can help nurture children. HOMG. THATS LIKE, AGREEING WITH US LAH WOIH.

and then they started talking about teenagers are more prone to Negative Influence because they surcome to peer pressure..ect.

Motion : This house believes that the media has a negative influence on the minds of Malaysians.

and if you're a debater, you would have realized that big fucking mistake they have made.

That was the team we lost to.

I'm so fucking pissed!!

I mean, just because a few school got confused, they grade with one side of their eyes closed.

wtf right?

I mean, obviously ALL THE WHILE memang the 3rd speaker cannot introduce new points lah!

but just because of the stupid so-called "confusion", they accepted the 3rd Speakers new point and added marks for them!

besides, their reply speech was like, 5 minutes long. gawddamnit! (and the reply speech wasn;t even a reply speech, it was a REBUT!)

like. w.t.f.

and you know, our team's mark got minus-ed cuz of lack-of-coorporation.

I dont get taht part. The lady blammed it on me. Simply because right after I finished my speech, I sat down, crossed my legs and smiled.

she said :"You look as if you felt relief that you have done your job. And you showed no coorporation to the other members."

WHATTAFACKKKK ?!

obviously I would sit down and ... well, relax lah!

AND BABI SIAL, SHOW NO COORPORATION ?
JUST BECAUSE YOU DIDNT SEE ME SCRIBBLING MADLY ON THE PAPER LIKE THE LA SALLE-IANS, DOESN"T MEAN IM NOT COORPORATING RIGHT?

I WAS FUCKING HELPING LI ANN AND SHEN YEN LISTEN TO THE SPEECH LAH YOU IDIOT. I WAS TELLING THEM HOW TO REBUT BACK.

NO COORPORATION MY FUCKING ASS.

I'm so damn fucking pissed.

and you know we lost by how many marks?

2 MARKS.

did I also mention La Salle prepared 4 points, but for both (1st and 2nd) speakers, they had no time to introduce their 2nd point. The bell rung right after they ended their speech on the first point. AND YES, BOTH THE SPEAKERS WERE LIKE THAT.

and hence they were stuck with : 2 points only.

I tell you, I'd called it a disgrace for Taylor's to grade that way.

if the stupid adjudicator did not point out our mistakes, I would be glad to allow La Salle to win.

but they way she freaking picked out our mistakes was like. so fucking irrelevant.

IM SO IRRITATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED!!!!

me and li ann swore to never step foot into Taylor's.

taylor's officially ruined their stupid image.

I detest Taylor's College.

THE.FUCKING.END.

p.s : I know this bores you to the max, but I'm damn damn damn pissed. So yeah. Bear with me.

p.s.s : will be back soon. Pics coming up

OH DEAR HORMONES,

can you please fuck off ?

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I know that was random.
but yeah, I needed to say that.

Imagine if you never had hormones,
then you'd never drool over a guy,
and never get your heart broken.

and if you never had hormones,
your heart probably won't be hurt right now,
AM I RIGHT?

no, I don't make sense right now, I know.

screw it.

oh wait, not forgetting, if you never had hormones,
you won't have that weird feeling when you read a stupid (porn) novel.

stupid Lynnette and Hazel made me read it. I thought it was some super chunted novel about death and stuff. Like you know, people dying?

turns out, it was about a bunch bitches begging to sleep with this certain superhot dude.

wtf. I was somemore reading it for the past 2 days.
waste my time.

i hate the novel right now.
it's stupid and nonsensical and well, stupid.

I seriously hate the book. It's like,
first of all, there isn't a hero (unless you consider a guy who can fuck very well as a hero)
secondly, the 'love' portrayed in the novel is so sickening. (unless you consider sex as love.)
thirdly, there were too many bitches. (unless you consider girls fucking their friend's boyfried not a bitch)

of course, when I told Kevin about the book.

his first reaction : REALLY? CAN I READ IT?

babi.

after reading the novel, I finally understand why sources show that boys think of sex every 7 seconds. Cuz it turns out that the book talks about sex almost every single page.

babi.

seriously, the book makes no sense.

the moral of the effin novel : fuck that hot guy before the other bitch gets to fuck him first.

 and no, I ain't kidding. I'm serious. And boys, as in BOYYYS, forget about porn. Better still: read the bloody book and make your imaginations go wilder.

did I mention the supposedly "hero" steamed in the middle of the novel? No kidding, the crazy novelist even described that.

like, what the tooooot.

kevin : if they book is so sick, what for you read it?
melinda : I wanna see who gets to sleep with the boy, first.
kevin : swt. =.=" (his signature response)

If you can catch him in one conversation without going SWT =.=", I'd pay you a million bucks.

no kidding. I bet he can't even live not using that for 3 minutes.

okay, CHANGE TOPICCC.

i have a problem

a big one.

like, a really big one.

wanna know what is it?

I'm treating my siblings extra nice these days.

I KNOW, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?
No idea. It sucks badly I tell you.

instead of me always going : DO THIS FOR ME AND DO THAT FOR ME.

they're the ones ordering me around these days.

and gawddamnit, I actually gave a crap about them when we went to the park a few days ago. I was like, constantly making sure they were safe and that no mosquitoes bite them and stuff.

Warning : i'm an idiot in the making.

my parents were out today.
Buuuuut, Niesha and I decided to stay in.

why?

one, she wanted to watch TV
two, because I wanted to read who fucked the main character first.

so I offered to prepare dinner for Niesha. (yes, how nice.)

but she was like : " oh no no, I'll do the cooking. I like cooking."

I was taken aback by her ... volunteering. A miracle I would say, like seeing Lynnette being taller than my dog.

buuuuut, here's the catch

few moments later I heard her scream from the kitchen
" JIE, IM GOING TO COOK THE MAGGI MEE ONE PACK BY ONE PACK ARH."

me : "For what? It'll be like damn slow!"
Niesha : " I scared later if I cook two packets together, I'd end up giving you a bigger portion."

I gave her the dulan look. And she got the idea. So, in the end she still cooked two packs together.

" Jie, this is your plate arh. The one with less noodles."

and then I finally knew why she 'volunteered' to cook dinner.

Reason : Just so she can abuse me by giving me less maggimee.

holysmuck.

I'm starving right now, but I'm on a diet.
Yes, yours truly, the fat ass has finally taken the iniatiative to stop procrastination and start acting to lose those flabs.

holytoot.

but so far, I had Filet-O-Fish for lunch brunch at McDs.
and well, the smaller portion of Maggimee for dinner.

did I also mention how my sister calls me fat?
oh and my mother too?

and not forgetting my maid.

they have been a great support. Great, great support. I love my family so damn much including the maid.

the maid who wears my tubetop (the souvenir from England given by Yokeyee), and then takes a million pictures of it in OU, and comes back bragging to me that she thinks she's sexy.

yeah, I like my life.

maid : eh melinda. You know right..
me : what ?
maid : my birthday is on monday, annd, EVERYONE is like giving me presents, haiyooo.
me : Em. okay.
maid : and you know all my friends are like giving me presents?!
me : er. okay. Yeah whatever.
maid : and me and my boyfriend is going..
me : Wait, wait, so how many gifts you recieved already?
maid : oh haha, 3 !!! [imagine her sounding extremely ecstatic]

wtf.

period.

oh well, I shall go nowwww
enough bitching for the day.

yours truly,
melinda

hm, I decided that I might as well blog my outings

MONDAY

Yokeyee and I went over to OU to bershopping.  Finally, a date with her alone

hahaaha. ANDGAWDDAMNIT, i miss shopping.

I practically poked a hole in my pocket, like literally.

I spent like a big amount of $$ on my stupid hair which .. well, nevermind.

@NICHII CITY.

I loveeeee the .. the.. funny looking outfit I was wearing.
I tell you ah, I can really pass as a 30-yr old woih.

can buy magarita now, and no idiotic waiters will doubt my age (: haahaa.

I kinda liked this tube dress, but there was a slight problem.
I have to keep on adjusting it.

cuz I have no idea why, but when it drops right, it makes me look like a BUFFALLO (refer to yokeyee's blog)

@REST & RELAX

I like Rest & Relax (:
it's like, damn pretty la the clothes.

(but the expensive lah deng) 

I think this was like, RM119 ? Can't remember.
I don't really think it looks nice tho'.

the cutting was a bit off.

One thing about the white funny dress... I looks gawddamnweird on my fat body.
(but if you like it, it's on sale!)

Traalalla. Yokeyee and I weren't so gay this time to change in the same room, and that explains why we're like... taking individual pictures.  

LAST SUNDAY @ THECURVE

meet brianna!

the girl who can sing damn well (:

And this is yours truly eating BigApples with a dulan face.

@NICHII CITY

apparently, brianna here doesnt know such shop existed.
But when she entered Nichii City, she practically robbed the place.

ha.

I think, deep down inside me, I've got a thing for mature working clothes.
Babi.

yeah I mean, I don't know why, but I just like them (:

I liked this dress so badly.
But it costed like,  RM 99.00.

and besides, all my aunts and uncles are married .. and yeah, like my grandmother always says : "The next wedding will be yours, melinda."

.......... I don't personally think so.

IN THE TAXI

Oh yeah, did I mention, Brianna spent an altogether RM350 in 5 hours itself ?

rich.brat.alert.

Then we started playing with the sunnies.

But poor lynnette who doesn't have a sunny,
all she could do was awe in silence.

ahahaha

well, that's all for today (:

school is coming my way in just 4 days.
HOLYFHUCK.

holidays zoomed past so fassssssst!
Grrrrr.

damn pissed. I wanna be on holiday for as long as possible,
why can't holidays be like a month or so?

angry.

I think I'd like to be a drop out from high school or something. Failing AddMaths and Moral seriously sucks.

I'm too dumb for school now.

gah.

oh well, i better end this post.teehee.

byeeeeeeeeee loves.

BET YA MISSED ME!  

right right?

cheeeseee

i feel so random all a sudden. hahah

after much procrastination, I finally bummed myself to start blogging

I've been playing Viwawa like non-stop.
seriously

i'd play it till 5.00 in the morning everyday

plus, since I was so desperate to earn 250 gold, I went on my msn list and asked everyone: "Do you feel bored?"

and if they reply yes, I'd send them a invitation to Viwawa.

bwahhaha  and if they join, that earns me 250 gold.

and that's a big amount okay?

well, so far, only one fella join.
whaddafuck.

oh well, first up, KUALA SELANGOR TRIP
zjeng zjeng zjeng.

I don't have many pics of the first day, but all I have are these.

all of us, excited ! FIREFLIESS !

and then we all wore our safety jackets.

in case we fall into the water and get eaten by the crocodiles.

GASPPPPP.

but no lah, we didn't see crocs.

but gawddamnit.

Fireflies are like the pretty-iest things alive.

seriously. No word can describe their beauty.

if there was such thing as keeping fireflies as a pet, I would have bought them all.

but no, sadly, no such thing.
But the fireflies were seriously damnnn pretty.

it was a really nice experience all together.

Finally, after like..15 min, we got back on shore and headed for dinner (:

it was barbeque. All yokeyee and I ate were.. sausages!

oh and you know, Pnchung & Pnliew were missing from the barbequeing.. so yokeyee and I went scouting for them since we needed the key.

and yeah, yokeyee and I were sleeping in the same room as Pnchung and Pnliew. sadnya.

yeah, so DO YOU KNOW WHERE WERE THEY ?

they were eating at the mamak stall

kononnya, mereka takut nanti cirit-birit.
WTF.

returning to our chalet alone was a DAMN WRONG MOVE.

but I aint gonna elaborate on them, maywen says its a... jinx. so yeah.

well, that's all I can say for the night. (: at 4am, yokeyee and I finally snooooozed.

The next day, we were all forced to pay RM11 to go to some nature park to see monkeys.

huuuuuuuuuuh?

monkeys. eee.

so we had to walk through like a mini-bridge with no railings and stuff.

some parts got railings lah, but right, we're not allowed to like, lean on it, cuz it's rusted.
and when metals are rusted, they tend to break easily

homg.

if you fall off the mini bridge, you can consider yourself as CRAB FOOD.

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they also had like ... advertisement board stuck everwhere in the jungle.

wtf.

 

Oh yeah, I saw SOME monkeys.

and this (in the red circle) is a mudskipper.

no, it does not skip on mud. it some what like a frog tho.

it can live on land and swim in the... well, either water or mud.
I'm not suree.

and this.. the funny looking blue crab, see it ? That's the crab I was talking about.

cool colour, eh?

NiccholasChin : Guess what Melinda?
Melinda : what?
NicholasChin : I'm going to steal one of the crabs.
Melinda : .. uh huh. And then?
NicholasChin : Bring it home
Melinda : And then?
NicholasChin : PAINT IT!
Melinda : ....?
NicholasChin : I'm going to paint it green and call it.. THE HULK.

well, finally after walking 3km under the sun (yes we paid to walk for 3 km), we finally hit the roads to return to KayEll.

Well, those are all the pics I got in the bus.
we were all fast asleep. (:

All I can say is it was fun in a way taht I got to spend some time with YokeYee, ALONE, in the chalet

though it was creepy, but at least we got to talk till 4am in the morning.

oh well, that's all.

tooooooodles.

I'm currently addicted to online games. (neopets&viwawa)

will be back in 3 days, or so.

haaaaahaa.

sorrrry

loveess ,
Melinda.

SO CUTE LAH!

yes, yours truly has returned.
I realize how much I've neglected my blog.

but but but but ,
I've got a fair excuse okay?!

I've been stressing out.
don't ask what is it about, I've just been stressed out.

stress = no mood = no blogging.

I'm not not not going to post a long entry about my results.

I'm just going to picture-blog  okay ?

Last friday @ Cendol.     +++ elaine&jonathan&nicholas&candice&1.5maywen.

MEET NICHOLAS.LEONG whom i've known for 10 years. wtf.

Jonathan : "eh nicholas! you look like a beggar! come i give you food."
nicholas : " wtf.... "

I call this : nicholas's omg-i-just-saw-her look.
ahahahah.

If only he was taller, they'd look so cute.

Erina : eh jonathan! I can bounce you off lah!
Jonathan : what?!

Erina pushes the seesaw harder. *boink boink

Jonathan : omg! stop!
erina : look! You're flying off the board.

hahahah. well, it was really fun that day. I laughed till I had stomach ache la seriously.

it was almost like a little boys' day out with their sisters.  
hahahahha.

Last Saturday @ Muar      +++ family.

Bryson forced me to take a picture of him doing that.
DAMN POSER I TELL YOU.

and notice he can't give a "peace" sign,
he only lifts up one finger.

???? ?????

This was at Malacca. Some deserted street.
DAMN CREEPY WAN I TELL YOU.

Then we went Jonker Street.

fyi, Jonker street ROCKS ! everything there is damn cheap lah!

And this is Isaac
well, my aunt wanted to name him Isaac.

but my very kolot-minded uncle said dowan.
he said chinese should have chinese name.

but you know why my aunt wanted to name him Isaac?

because that was where my aunt & uncle met in Isaac Street, US.

like, awwwwwwwwweee. so sweet

On sunday, we started our journey back to homesweethome.

annnnd, lucky us, we got to see thousands of people holding candles walking on the streets in conjunction of Wesak Day!

it was such a pretty sight!

We ate dinner at Malacca too.
that satay up there, is no ordinary satay.

it's PORK SATAY!

eating pork is the reason to why I have to take moral studies. fhuck.

then of course, some good-o orh.chien.
a yummy dinner. somemore damn cheap leh!

and to end this post,
I dedicate you

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Bryson's signature pose.

goodbye loviedovies,
melinda.